hey it's me again....well i finally caught up with joseph yesterday and the day before after months of not seeing each other. well i didn't get much fresh news out of him. only that Alan was with Melissa then broke up with her when John came back. But i saw them together 2 or 3 days ago.......? Plus joseph said he's (alan) turned GOTH!?!?!? his hair is totally freaky...and the way he dresses up!!!! Oh Plus that Chris is now known as a male whore!!! hahahaha....... Nicoleherine told me that lola was coming back at the end of this month or next so you'll probably be here. Are you comng back for good or just a holiday? I think I've got a position as sales rep at The Sebel....so it's all good...... I gotta go back in at 2:30pm today...... Hey i finally got that motorola phone i always wanted...and in pink too!!!! I bought from top video...when i walked in they said it was the only one left and i was like it must be a sign from God!!!Anyways back to joseph.....after seeing him only two days he sent me a txt last nite asking if he could borrow my mini shorts, roxy top, belt, bag and wallet for alexia's birthday on saturday. I said sorry all my hashishff is at north efate. good to know he hasn't changed a bit.went to see my dad today and he gave me these shoes that bev got me in OZ......3 pairs so i was happy for my new shoes.....i have to reconcile with her my dad says.....i told him i'm only doing it for you and for no-one else....it's killing me that he has to suffer everyday because we can't get along.....i guess one of us should get off our high horse and say sorry.......

Belinda called me - apparently it was an emergency..bloody slut. She got home from a friend's 21st and then Fredie rocked up at the nicke time, so she got into fredie's car and went and rooted him. Apparently, he loves to give her head. Bitch. But she doesn't want to c him anymore. She was freaking out cos she didn't let her parents know she had left, so her poor mum sat up all night and morning waiting for her to come back safely home. B was bitching about how i am worse than her, cos i always used her as an alistairlbi when i was out rooting and mum was looking for me. Ahaha. She was talking about how you told me in an email that your last root was with "boy who thought he was a gorilla" and your last kiss was with his brother.
Don't feel like a slut
about anthony and fabio (love their names) cos Belinda also hooked up (didn't have sex with though) with fredie's brother, will. (You met him at Southbank remember)?
You shouldn't hate the fact that you have developed a very useful skill:
being able to detach yourself emotionally
after hooking up with someone.
# especially if its with someone who just wants to fuck. and use your beautiful body

The only thing that's been getting action lately is my finger and best friend i like to call clitoris. I want sex but then when i get a chance to hook up, germaine greer just keeps reciting all her quotes to me over and over again in the back of my head. But on the other hand, there has not been any 'real' connection with anyone. But it doesn't bother me, as long as i continue to keep myself aroused (ahaha) - watching what i like to call michellet porn - the only sex scene in the notebook on dvd. ahah.
Did you not get my email tellilng you that i had killed him off. I'm not going to say his name - except in my fantasies. (wink). But totally over that guy. (Althought I'm really not). But I'm trying to work with laws of attraction which claim that when you focus on what you do want, you attract them. So now if i tell mysefl that i dnt want 'him' then i will reduce my bodily longing for that penis.
You know what...if men didn't have penises, then we wouldnt care they existed. That's a theory that has been produced by my hours procrastinating.
I was with Karo on Saturday and called your place, no answer. So knew you were doing you thing - either with the kids or having a quickie with either anthony, or tahe (his cousin).